Posts Tagged ‘education’

I’m halfway through my second week of college and I absolutely love it.

Things that are awesome:
-Classmates that usually want to be in their classes
-Professors that are more concerned with teaching than parenting
-The feeling that I’m actually learning things
-Sense of accomplishment because I’m working towards my career goal
-Meeting acquaintances who are interested in the same things I am
-The fact that no one draws on the tables or vandalizes campus
-Boost of confidence when I answer a question correctly or engage the professors during class

Things that are less awesome:
-Not blurting out every thought I have during a lecture/class time. I’m not used to teacher-led courses
-Mountains of homework
-Stress about homework that ratchets up my bipolar racing thoughts
-The extreme amount of mental energy (or “spoons”) learning and being “on” requires of me
-My uncertainty about how little I know about becoming a high school teacher
-Not knowing who I can ask my questions to. I know I can ask my adviser but they only see you once per quarter and it’s weird and offputting.

Sorry I haven’t updated much. I’ve been really busy and trying to get used to the amount of work I have to do now that I’m in school again. I promise I have an update for you soon!



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I will not be working retail as of next Monday! I’ve been working at my store for over 2 years, and while I have a love/hate relationship I think I’ll still miss it. Eventually I’m sure that the nostalgia will fade to gratitude for not having to work in that shit-hole, but I’ll miss my coworkers at first.

I’m starting school on Jan. 2nd I’m sort of scared. My high school was part-time; I only went for 3 hours a day. I’m nervous about having a full course load for the first time in 4 years. I choose my high school because of my bipolar. I didn’t have teacher-led classes, instead each student would start a learning plan at whatever point in the year and generally had two months to complete it. That gave me some leeway; if I had a bad week with my medication side effects or situational issues I would be able to make it up without too much fuss. It wasn’t like the teachers would bitch at me if I didn’t turn in work for a week and I wouldn’t “fail” the class until the due date had passed. I’m worried that I won’t be able to cope with the community college course load. All of my friends tell me not to worry, but I do anyway.

Luckily for me I have my dad’s GI Bill benefits to help me with tuition and housing costs, but I’m thinking about going back to work after this quarter. I’m planning on becoming a high school teacher, so I’ll have to take 5 years of school rather than the normal 4 for a BA. I’d rather save my GI benefits for my really expensive schooling rather than blowing it on community college, but I wanted to take this quarter to get used to a full load. I’ll probably apply back at my place of work in three months if my bipolar lets me, but I wanted to make sure that I could do it before trying to work as well.


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